As this semester is coming to an end all I can think about is how crazy it's been. Crazy in a good way. Not saying I've not had my struggles this semester, because believe me I have, but God has allowed me to see His goodness in it all.
At the beginning of this semester I held a leadership role on my hall where once a week I would lead 4 girls from my hall in a Bible study and not only did I get to do that but through that, I got to know each of those girls so much better and build awesome relationships with them. However, there came a point where my circumstances in life really challenged my view of God and I became angry with God and began to push away His truths. In all of this I stepped down from my leadership position because I didn't feel like I was in a position to lead my girls because I wasn't practicing the things I was trying to teach them. I wanted them to be effectively poured into and ministered to; so, I gave up my position.
You might see that as just another failure in this life and think that I've moved on from it. You could think that and you would be partially right. For a few weeks, I saw it as a failure. I saw myself as a failure and a disappointment; but, I didn't move on from it and I'm glad I didn't. Me having to make that decision has become a big mile marker in my life. Now I can look back on that (even two months later) and see God's goodness in it. I no longer see that point in my life as a failure. I look at that point and see it as a set back that set me up for something so much greater.
And that thing that was so much greater?
-Growing significantly closer to my Father.
[Side Note: whatever temptation you're struggling with, whatever decision you're having to make, whatever happens in this life rest in the FACT that God is always always always better. Rest in that and pursue Him with everything that you are.]
I still haven't let that go. I have learned (and still am learning) so much from that experience and because I took a step back, I got to grow more than I knew was possible. Seeing where I was then and now is a lot different and it's all happened in the span of one semester and I thank God daily for the things, good and bad, that have led me to where I am right now.
So if you're feeling like you something is holding you back from being in a closer relationship with God, you might be right. My question to you is: The thing(s) you're holding on to, is that thing helping you run towards Jesus? Or is that thing slowing you down?
It could even be a good thing that's prohibiting you from getting closer to Jesus.
Are you willing to place that thing, good or bad, on the chopping block before your Father (who LOVES you and only wants His best for you) and let Him do what He wants with it?
So that's just one part of what's been going on this semester.
And I would honestly really love to hear what you guys think and if you want to know more of what God has been doing this semester.
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